isnt life grand
i should really be sleeping
so i like the grey
what do you think

how weird that te day(morning actually) that i decide to come back to xanga is my 1000th day of being a member
i know
but where else would i put my cryptic nonsense
sure i culd go to livejournal
but i think i am going to be giving this another show what do you say
anyway
so yeah
i still work at borders
have i said that yet
and well because i am who i am
there hasbeen somedrama there
but that was a while ago and doesnt really matter

right now anyway

the point is i do have a job
and i think i am prety good at it
along with being shy
at times people you do hve to give me that i mean i do get loud after awhile but who doesnt


i digress
the real reason i returned is because of  boy
wel more than one boy
all the same boys
they are all still there
and i was lurking the internet
something i shouldnt do
and i might have signed on to myspace using an email that was not mine
but if he didnt want me on there he would try a more original password
thats all i am saying
and marveling at the hypocrisy

then there is the one t work
he is the most important and everything is revolving around him right now
he does not work there
but he is there everyday and i see him and talk to him
and he makes me smile

a lot
lol
i think i might have fallen in like with him
i know
how predictable of me

this realy served no purpose
i have written most of it in my paper journal
but it is a start
i should be back more often
more later
better
and more coherent
i promise